i'm in a state that calls for repeat-listening to songs that make me verge on tears, obsessing about their lyrics and wanting to sing and sing.

i cried exactly four tears last night while watching an especially moving episode of buffy the vampire slayer.

this is what it's come to.

i just got home from tending bar and i have too much energy to go to bed but too little sense to stay awake. the day was awful until the evening happened. and now the evening won't end.

i should go to sleep. really.